I like to call myself Joyseph because I can relate so much to his story! Not only did God give me dreams, but He also gifted me with the interpretation of dreams which produced the book, “Parables in the Night Seasons”. I, like Joseph was a dreamer and I, like Joseph shared my dreams. I’ve went from the betrayal of the brethren to being used in the house of Pharaoh. And in the recent season I had found myself in the dark place of the prison or dungeon! At the beginning of this season I could still find myself being used of God but as the season continued my hopes and dreams of being released once again to those dreams began to die within me. Then pain and disappointments of the season were digging a grave for me and my very life seemed to be dead! My desires were dead! My dreams were dead! And my passion was dead! But then! I want you to know there is a “but then”!
But then, I felt the rumblings of the earth shaking beneath the grave of those dead dreams. These rumblings began to launch fear within me. I found myself bantering with a myriad of self talk that went something like, “I am afraid to dream. What has dreaming done for me? These dreams I once had have brought me pain and disappointments! There is no life in me any longer! It is not in me to dream again! I don’t even know what that would look like. I am so far removed from that person I used to be.”
But then, God spoke to me and said, “Joy, you have forgotten that there is more to Joseph’s story”. At that moment I felt the Spirit speak to me and say, “Go back and read how Joseph felt when his dream was about to be called back to life.” I turned to the pages of his story; this time looking for what Joseph may have felt just before his dreams were resurrected.
Genesis 41:14-16 says, “Then Pharaoh sent and called Joseph, and they brought him quickly out of the dungeon; and he shaved, changed his clothing, and came to Pharaoh. And Pharaoh said to Joseph, ‘I have had a dream, and there is no one who can interpret it. But I have heard it said of you that you can understand a dream, to interpret it’. So Joseph answered Pharaoh saying ‘it is not in me; God will give Pharaoh an answer of peace’”.
There it was! Joseph felt just like me! His response was, “IT IS NOT IN ME”! He may as well of been saying, “I am afraid to dream. What has dreaming done for me? These dreams I once had have brought me pain and disappointments! There is no life in me any longer! It is not in me to dream again! I don’t even know what that would look like. I am so far removed from that person I used to be!” He goes on to say, “God will give Pharaoh an answer of peace”. Now I imagine what he was really saying was, “don’t look at me because I can’t help you but God will give you what you need but I don’t have it”!
When I read the words, “it is not in me” tears flooded as I realized those were my very feelings! At one time, I may had been willing to offer my services but now it was like, please don’t ask because there is nothing in me to give you! Sobbing at this realization I could feel God bringing healing to me. Just becoming aware that I was not alone in how I felt was healing in itself. Then God took me further into Genesis chapter 41 and showed me that this was just a season that I had encountered and that He wanted to bring resurrection life once again to me.
Genesis 41:29-31 says, “Indeed seven years of great plenty will come throughout all the land of Egypt; but after them seven years of famine will arise, and all the plenty will be forgotten in the land of Egypt; and the famine will deplete the land. So the plenty will not be known in the land because of the famine following, for it will be very severe”.
What Joseph was interpreting was the moving from plenty to famine. He goes on to say that the plenty will not be know because the famine following it will be very severe. This past season has been really severe for many of us. As a result we have forgotten the days of plenty. The days of plenty represent the days of our promise, of our dreams, of our passion, and of our gifts. That is why we may say, “It is not in me”. The severe famine has depleted us and left us for dead. In the days of plenty we had dreams, visions experiences in God with fun and exciting days to awake to. Now the famine has left us with loss of life, interest, joy, passion, drive, dreams and the like. When I read this I had understanding in ways I had not before! The most exciting part was that this was just a season! We are at the end of that season and signs of life are beginning to emerge! Even as we see the budding of spring around us, new life for a new season is upon us! How appropriate is this?! The beginning of our new season comes just at the time that we will be celebrating “Resurrection Day”! Will you let God bring resurrection to your dreams? It is time to dream again!
And just as Jesus stood at the tomb of Lasarus and cried with a loud voice, “Lazarus, come forth!” I stand at the tomb of your dead dreams and cry with a loud voice, “Dreams come forth!” in Jesus name! Amen!